In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.

Oh hey, here I am again. Commencing venting session…now. What a year it has been. I could literally say it’s been one of the worst. I ended an amazing summer (summer 2011) and found out I was not going to be able to return to mother Millsaps. As much as that place sucks sometimes, I miss the hell out of it. I miss my best friends and all the other people there. So I transferred, and I hated it…so I transferred again…and hated it again. So much shit happened to me. I honestly look back at that time and feel bad for the girl I was dating because she was such a sweet and amazing person but through all my fuck-headness I drove her away and pretty much made her miserable. Story of my life. It really is such a shame that bad things have to happen to people in life. I’m not purely discussing the bad things that happen to me, but to everyone. Bad things that happen to good people. So sad. But through all the bad things you have to search and find the little things that make you happy and be thankful for them. I believe for the most part that God is not asking you to be thankful for the bad place you’re in, but more or less for the good things that happen in the midst of the bad. That’s what I’ve started doing with my life. I was in such a dark place for a long time with literally anything that could go wrong would go wrong that I lost sight of all the amazing things that have happened in my life. It was until recently that I thought of this though. At this point though I’m cutting all the negative out of my life and only accepting good. If I find something that I find is damaging to me in any way I will rid myself of it. I don’t have the time nor energy to keep putting up with bull shit. And yes this means even someone who means a lot to you who all of a sudden is not good for you. You have to get rid of that person too. It seems harsh but it’s really the only way for me. 

I’m starting new. Big things that I never imagined are about to happen to me, and I’m thrilled because I’ve worked my ass off to get there. I’m sorry this isn’t as eloquently written as some of the other things I write. I’m going to start writing more because I have to. It’s like this itching feeling I have to create something all the time. Until next time…

My 2nd mix